The Shikon Jewel for Healing

I will start with Courage.

荒魂, Courage
Having the courage to stop blaming oneself takes a lot more effort than one may think.

But it's worth the effort.

Taking the courage to face your feelings head on, is a lot harder in practice than in theory.

But it is liberating.

The healing process takes a while. For some - many months; for others - many years.

My experience with deep hurt says, with the intent to heal and come out stronger on the other side, is an awesome way to go. Of course, it depends on the depth of hurt.

So to that I say, to each his/her own.

But for me, I didn't want to fall into a deep dark place of horrid nightmares. Angry, yes, but I would not allow myself to remain at rock bottom.

So I turned to face me, and apologized to myself. I turned to me and forgave myself.

And now the BIG part: the Courage to speak.

Oh, that took time. A little over one year for me. It is still a bit scary, for fear of judgement [naturally]; but it is liberating.

Things became clearer. I become stronger. My mind becomes emptier and lighter. I feel as if I'm running on 'high'...with no desire to slow or back down.

It's how I felt. It's how I feel. I'm sharing it.

I will have a shining Shikon Jewel by the end of my healing journey. It was shattered last Autumn.

Gatheirng the pieces have been trying...an emotional ordeal.

But with great effort, the pieces are coming together again.

It's been tainted - nearly dark. But the light is returning.


...my heart flutters with an upswell of untamed energy...

...I can barely breath deeply and remain conscious...


The Lion...